Many of you might have seen the posts here announcing my latest book, and many of you might wonder how the hell I ever got to have so much stuff published. Well… it wasn’t always like that, and I was once an unpublished writer sending stories into the void in hopes of making a sale. And here is the story of that very first one.
It had been the week from hell.
It was a cold Thursday in the middle of May (May is mid-autumn in Argentina), and I sincerely felt that my professional career had reached the lowest point I could remember. Like most aspiring writers, I have a day job, one that was quickly driving me insane. The problem was that I had recently left my job at Johnson & Johnson to take a much higher-profile job offered by a local company. From both an economic and career standpoint, this was a step forward. But there was a problem.
I couldn’t stand my boss.
I had had difficult bosses before, and, in general, had been able to deal with the situation in a professional way and thereby smooth out the possible differences. But this guy was different. Obsessive and detail oriented, he was the person that they (whoever “they” are) were thinking of when they coined the word “micromanagement”. And to make things worse, it wasn’t enough to do things right. You also had to do things his way.
But that wasn’t even the worst of it. The worst of it was that he was so convinced that his way was the right way of doing things that he would be sarcastic and scathing to the point of aggression whenever things weren’t exactly to his liking. Which they never were.
And on this particular week, the rest of his direct reports had been away on business in Brazil, which left me alone to face the full force of his personality. This invariably caused me to stay late at work and get up early to work some more. By Thursday, I was ready to resign, but couldn’t because I needed the job.
It was nearly nine when I left work that evening, and tried to use the commute to calm down. The only good thing about the situation is that the rush hour had been over for an hour, and my commute was therefore much quicker. I was exhausted and feeling very, very down.
I arrived at my apartment and was handed a small manila envelope addressed to me, handwritten in blue ink. I opened it and inside was a copy of Jupiter SF, a small press British magazine devoted to Science Fiction printed in black and white.
At first, I was unsure what to make of this. I knew that I had sent them a story, and I thought that this was a market strategy to try to get me to subscribe. But then it occurred to me that maybe, just maybe, they had decided to print my story. I leafed through it quickly, and there it was. It wasn’t a Marketing ploy, it was a contributor’s copy.
Honesty forces me to stop here and admit that while in the process of changing jobs and failing to adapt to my new boss, I had let my writing slide. I hadn’t written anything at all since January, and hadn’t even bothered to send my rejected stories out again to different markets. I can see now that I was quickly becoming a failed former writer, as opposed to an aspiring one.
Nevertheless, at the moment I realized that I was now a published author; all my other worries went out the window. The satisfaction that I got from it was not monetary, since it was a small magazine and I wasn’t paid for the story (although, having submitted by email and received a magazine worth four dollars, I had, unusually, come out ahead), but at the thought that someone out there had thought that my story was good enough that people would have to hand over their hard-earned cash in order to read it. And, that, somewhere out there, people were doing precisely that.
I assume that this is a feeling that all published writers have had during their careers, but the effect on me was rather strong. It instantly rekindled my desire to write and publish.
And, much more importantly, it gave me something to be proud of. And that was something I had really needed.
Gustavo Bondoni has recently completed the Emily Plair Trilogy with the final novel, Amalgam. Find out what happens to each of the characters in the satisfying conclusion, which you can purchase here.